Clover's & Lady Bug's...

Ok a little background before the pictures. My grandpa, who was my hero died when I was 17. It still seem's like yesterday, and just like my babies it is hard to believe he is gone. Now grandpa was born on St. Patricks Day, so we have always associated anything green (like clovers!) with him.

Now right before I had Alyssa I registered at Target for a Lady Bug crib set, and all the matching accessories. I planned on calling her my Lyssy Bug.

Last week we went to decorate for Easter at the babies graves. This is what I saw....

Lady Bug!!!

Clovers!!! The only patch of them, right between Alyssa & David's headstones!

Lady Bug & Clovers


It flew onto my hand...


Thank you Grandpa for showing me that you are with my babies. Nothing is sweeter. I love you Grandpa, Alyssa, and David

Moved...

So we are back in Springfield, which is where we lived when we found out David was sick. This is where we had moved from CA to be 5 years ago next month. This is where Alyssa was born, and this is where both my babies are buried.

This is where I have no trust in the doctors, or hospital. I am getting my insurance arranged here and am looking for a doctor at the only other hospital.

I'm 22 weeks. This is when Alyssa was born. This is also when I was in our car accident and pregnant with David. This is not a good week. I am constantly worried, and even though everyone seems to think I can just not be stressed...it's not that easy.

I pray Maya continues to grow and be healthy. She moves around so much now, a constant reminder to Mommy that she is there and growing.

I'm still blogging from my phone, and hope to have internet soon so I can really get my thoughts out. Miss seeing everyone's updates!