Wednesday, August 12, 2009

My Husband...

I didn't know until this morning that my husband reads my blog! I was suprised, shocked, and happy. Sometimes a lot of what I blog about is stuff I can't talk about in real life. As vocal as I am in my blog about my feelings, when it comes to actually speaking them to another person...
I tend to keep it inside. When the words come out of my mouth so do the tears.
 
So I just wanted to let you know how much I love you Christopher. You are my heart, my soul, my everything. Without you in my life I don't know where I would be without you. In all honesty if we hadn't got back together when we did I would probably be lost in the world with no one. You are the only man I've ever loved, the only one I will ever love other than our son.
 
I couldn't have made it through loosing Alyssa without you. I couldn't have made it through loosing David without you. I couldn't have made it through any of our hard times without you. You are my strength, my rock, my everything.
 
I am so sorry that we have had to go through everything we have. I am so sorry that you have had to deal with loosing our babies. I feel so guilty for all the pain you have gone through because of me. The last thing in the world I ever want is you to be hurt or sad. I love you Daddy.
 
You are the only man I would ever want to be the father of my children. You make me so proud.

3 comments:

Michele said...

such a sweet post. :)

I remember feeling shocked when I learned Peter read my blog too, but it has been helpful because we can talk about the posts and really let stuff out sometimes that maybe we wouldnt have brought up before.

My Very Own Angel said...

That is amazing. I'm still waiting for my husband to read my blog. lol. Even people that he works with read my blog but not him.

Inanna said...

I get mad when mine doesn't! lol