Sunday, December 20, 2009

Thinking of...

So I have been debating in my mind (with myself of course) on where to take this blog. Don't get me wrong, no matter what I choose I will continue to blog. I've always loved to keep a diary, even though I could never keep up with it for more than a couple weeks tops. But I tried and tried through out my life, and now I finally am comfortable with my diary being my blog. Happy faces :)

Now my question is this. Do I continue on this blog with all my new life events? I started this blog the day I found out David's heart was sick :( This blog was always entended to be about David, and his story. I never imagined his story would end so soon.

I feel sometimes as if I should start a new blog, and dedicate it more to my family life. That doesn't mean I wouldn't blog about Alyssa and David. It doesn't mean that I am moving on, or that my healing is "done." It just means that I don't know if I want to invade David's page with my new pregnancy as if me being pregnant has made me forget about either of my babies, because IT HASN'T!!! I am still as devestated and missing my babies as ever.

I also respect the fact that many, many baby loss mama's have a hard time reading about someone else's pregnancy. I felt the sadness many many times before, and still sometimes cringe (even though I am thankful other's have been so blessed) when I go to a page I've seen before and now there is a new baby, or a pregnancy in progress. It saddens me that even in our "exclusive group" of baby loss mama's that we are still divided...into those who have had another baby, and those who haven't.

So I now try and decide. Will you all follow me if I start my blogging journey into this new life?


Michele said...

I'm a big fan of staying in one place, but that is just me. Wherever you go, I will follow. :)

Sarah said...

Sis.. you know I am soooo all over it.. No Matter what.. I love reading your blogs.. ;)