Monday, November 30, 2009

Christmas is CANCELLED!

Yes my dear readers, I am officially cancelling Christmas in our house. What is Christmas without your kids? What is a house without your family in it to celebrate with? Let me explain to you the 3 ways I am missing my kids ALREADY for Christmas.

Reason #1: Nadine will most likely be in California again this Christmas. Even though her biological "mother" (I use that word lightly) hasn't called her since July (when she was arrestted with Nadine in the car on her first day of summer court ordered visit)...we have very little legally we can do on our own. We have been advised a court date would be months away, and even then the courts don't like to terminate mother's rights EVEN IF THEY AREN'T INVOLVED. As long as she makes the effort to see her on the 3 scheduled times a year, she is a fit parent. Does anyone think of the mental well being of my daughter? That maybe someone who isn't actively involved doesn't deserve to have visitations?

Reason #2: My step-daughter and her boyfriend decided they don't want to bring the grandbaby to spend Christmas with us this year. Even though we have been down there 10+ times this year (2 hours away) and they have only been here last Christmas. We are hurt and disapointed, we want to be with our kids. Chris works day before and after so we can't leave town. I sure will miss my lil butterball grandson chasing me around saying "Nah-Nah!!!" how I love to hear him call me Nana :)

Reason #3: Alyssa and David will spend Christmas in Heaven together. I miss them so much, and this would be David's 1st Christmas. I planned this Christmas out last year as I sat here, on this same couch, pregnant...feeling my baby move inside me as excited as I was.

How I will miss all of my kid's this holiday. How I will miss all my family. Chris and I will spend the holiday alone, together. I can't help but be sad and emotional.


Michele said...

Oh sweetie... I know...

John and Jenna Gensic said...

I'm sorry to hear all that you are going through. My mom is a foster parent trying to adopt a child so I can empathize with your problems with the state. I'm praying for you and your family this holiday season.


Tammy On the Go said...

my dear Friend, praying that an over and abundant feeling of God's presence would fill you this christmas and not once may you feel alone. not once.

Sarah P. said...

Awww sis!! This makes me so sad to hear!! I hope they change their mind and come and see you!! I would if I could!! Take care love!!

Delekatala said...

Hello, I just happened to find this blog. I vote for canceling xmas too, but I guess its not a viable option for me.

I lost my daughter when she was 16 days old. She passed away on January 14, 2009. Just one day before your david.