Sunday, November 8, 2009

Scared

I'm numb. I'm scared. I'm desperate to pick baby names so this baby is named, no matter when it chooses to enter this world.

I am not ready for the negativity from certain family and friends. They don't understand why we would try again, why we would let it happen again...they just don't understand. I don't want to cloud my pregnancy with negativity from anyone.

This baby is a blessing. My miracle. I know this for sure. I am numb to all the emotions of finding out you are pregnant because I am so scared. I don't know how to feel, how to think, how to even go through the emotions of what is going on.

I pray for this pregnancy to go smoothly. Pray with me.

5 comments:

Tina:0) said...

I can't imagine the roller coaster of emotions that you're on. Praying for peace for you, & understanding for those who would (are/have) questioned you.

boltefamily said...

Praying for you. I understand all too well the scoffs and negative comments from those who just don't get it. Praying things continue to go well and that you will be holding a healthy baby in your arms soon!

Michele said...

Of course we are praying.

Negative comments are hard to deal with. We finally told people that they didnt have to talk to us about our pregnancy; if they had nothing nice or positive to say then just ignore it. We just couldnt have the added stress.

Since you dont know boy or girl yet, you could do a unisex name like Fances, or you could just assign a sex and name. Hey- if you are wrong, you can always kiss it away and make up for it! :)

Sending you big hugs and many prayers...

Lee Family said...

I will be praying for you and your family, hang in there

Amanda Hoyt said...

Nikki,
I'm praying for you.
Hugs,
Amanda