As I sat down to start typing this out we heard our first shooting in the new house. Literally about 10 feet away from our front windows. So to say the least, this is NOT a good neighborhood, and I will NOT be letting Nadine play outside anytime soon. I am also buying something to go over her windows so you can't see light outside for any reason.
Well we did get moved, and we love our house. It's just the neighborhood, that until tonight we thought was...well not the best...but liveable. Just getting moved here was a big ordeal, which I hope to blog about another time. Now for the medical updates.
I had a fetal echo/ultrasound yesterday and met briefly with my new doctors. I met the high risk OB and the cardiologist, both who were super nice. Here is what I learned...
1. I will have to deliver C-Section due to David's swelling in his head. He already weighs almost five and a half pounds, mostly due to me being diabetic we think. But because his head is still filling with fluid it won't be possible for me to have a regular delivery.
2. For sure we know that he has ventricular septal defect, aortic overriding, and TOF.
3. Possible pulmonary atresia, which means he doesn't have a pulmonary artery from what I understand. I have another ultrasound in 4 weeks, and the doc will try and see better then and if he can't we will have to wait until David is born to know for sure.
All of this is really having an effect on me emotionally. I just don't know how to deal with it all, how to just be strong and say it's okay that my baby is VERY sick. I can't do that yet. I love him no matter what we have to face, and will be strong for him once he is here but until then I am terrified. I can hardly think, sleep, or do anything without being sidetracked. Pray for us.