My whole world is caving in around me. I've been working from home in the mornings since about August I think? Doing medical transcription proof reading, it's been a great job they worked with me during all my medical crisis, including my car accident and having David, and all his doctor's appointments. I took my job seriously and I loved it. Gave me the freedom to get Nadine ready in the morning, walk her to the bus stop, and do my work.
This morning I was fired. I made a mistake over the weekend on a file. But let me tell you it was an ACCIDENT, I didn't do it on purpose and I don't normally have mistakes, atleast no one has ever told me of them. I told her I was so sorry, I and what I just said to you all, that I take my job seriously and I have just had a lot on my mind.
She says to me "I've read the blog YOU sent me, and I see how you said you can't work anymore, so I have no faith in what you say anymore."
WHAT?!?!?! I read back and I think what she is referring to is when I said I couldn't work after the car accident, and I didn't for about 2 weeks. I never said I couldn't work anymore now.
What does she want to hear from me? Does she want me to blog about how I really feel getting up every morning and working? How I do it for my family because I have to, I have to try and make it seem like I'm okay, that I can deal with everyday normal things? That I probably made a mistake because I was crying over how I want to be with my baby? That it hurts me so bad inside to be without David that I've prayed and asked God why he didn't take me with my son? Does she want to hear that without having a job how worthless I now feel over one mistake, how I have so much anxiety even leaving the house I don't know how I will get a job to help support my family?
My world is caving in...and all I want is my son...
P.S. I will now have to moderate my comments, since someone not brave enough to leave a name is leaving me messages I don't really care to even read. But to all the people who have supported me, thank you, thank you!