Missing Him...

I just miss David so much. How does a heart still beat when so much when so much of it is missing? How can a heart endure so much pain and still beat?

How can anyone want to just read about how sad and depressed I am forever? I still havent found counseling, working on that. Need it badly...

I miss you so much David, Mommy doesnt know how to go on without you. Or with the fact you will never grow up here with us. Or that I may never ever have another baby, even though you are the one I want. You weren't supposed to die baby boy, they said you would live.

Boo Bear...Mommy needs you to be here with me I need you baby boy....